How did I get here? Why am I in this state of mind? How did this become a habit? These questions have been consistent for a while now, but to cap it all, this is my first new creative thing in almost a month. What happened? I keep asking myself that too, but here’s my rough conclusion: my excuses have been louder than my actions.

Have you ever cut onions before? Does crying make you stop cutting the onions or want to get over it faster? There are times you have to stop, wipe your tears, get yourself together, and get back to it. Why do you intentionally do what keeps making you cry? It’s easy to tolerate pain when you have experienced what the reward feels like.

Your eyes are in tears, but your taste buds are anticipating the outcome of those tears. We can call them tears of joyful taste, maybe. Which brings me to why we stop cutting our life onions when it makes us cry. We don’t know what the reward feels like; we have not experienced the outcome of hard work yet, so of course, we have more excuses to stop than to keep trying.

But guess what? If you were not going to get through the tears at all, why did you start cutting the onions in the first place? Imagine a peeled and half-cut onion lying on your kitchen counter for days; it starts to rot, and you eventually throw it out. That’s what excuses do to your goals—take the life out of them, leaving them to rot until you eventually dispose of them. Then, you say it didn’t matter anyway or switch goals.

I am not saying it’s wrong to switch goals, or that giving up on something is an altogether bad idea. But if you can’t pull one thing through, what makes you think it’s what you’re pulling through that’s the problem and not you who’s doing the pulling?

Maybe you’re in a “how did I get here?” situation. Don’t think too hard, my friend; you brought yourself here. Maybe by little steps or big steps, but at some point, you thought this was the best way to take in your life, and now you’re thinking maybe not. It’s not that you’re out of options, but don’t cut the onions halfway. You already started crying; be known as the person who is rewarded for their tears, not as someone who cries for nothing.

Uncertainty is hard, but you shouldn’t let it stop you from trying. It’ll be good if you know the outcome, better if it exceeds what you dreamt of, but worse if you never even tried. Every excuse eats away at the probability of that outcome. Let the food cook, cry your tears now. Maybe these are the years you work; the best ones are on the way!

I hope you have a week full of reasons and not excuses ❤️

Song of the moment – Maphupho (Dreams Come True) by Justin Vibes, Onset Music Group and Zandimaz.