If there’s one thing I will always be grateful for, it’s that what you go through isn’t written all over you. That might sound common, but think about people who have been physically harmed and have to live with visible scars for the rest of their lives. Sometimes, they even miss a body part and must go on regardless. I think it’s so brave that they keep going, but what I find more commendable is you, who are hurt and broken inside.

You have been through so much pain with no physical scar to show for it; just because you show up whole every day does not mean it didn’t happen. Or that you don’t look like it does not change the fact that it hurts. Today, I want to send you strength because no one else can see those scars except you, but that does not make them meaningless.

So, yes, thank God we don’t look like what we have been through, and thank you, too, for being a victor. But you might have become so fooled by your scarless appearance that you believe you have healed. Are you sure it no longer hurts? Or since no one sees it, does that mean it’s disappeared? I think not.

I’m not asking you to wallow in the pool of the past; after all, we all want to move on to a healthy mental state. I fear you’re still stuck because of your pretense. There are people whose names still cause aches in my heart and places or situations that I’m never comfortable in. If I really have moved on, should it still hurt? I think so.

Your healing and letting it go do not change the fact that it happened. You trying so hard to be okay with what wasn’t is where you fool yourself. If something breaks, cracks, shifts, or changes, it will never be the same again. There’s a problem if you keep pretending like it is. You don’t see someone who lost an arm pretend like they still have it, so why do you act like it’s okay just because you look like it’s okay?

Again, dwelling on the past or sinking in self-pity is not the point. The point is it’s okay if it still hurts. It does not mean you have not healed, moved on, or forgotten. It just means there is a part of you you might never get back, and it’s alright to miss it sometimes. Stop the hard guy act; it’s you hurting yourself all over again.

Or maybe it’s the other way around; you hurt yourself, and it’s hard to forgive someone you cannot escape. Perhaps you are good at the forgiveness part, but how do you forget if it’s still you in the mirror every day? I don’t think I have an answer yet, but try kindness; you deserve a little mercy.

If it was your fault or wasn’t, it doesn’t matter anymore. Stop acting like it’s okay when it isn’t. It’s easy to pretend it is, but it’s healthier to be alright with it not being okay.

Song of the moment – Ego talking (A Colors Show) – Saint Harison

Love ❤️ and light 💡 always☺️