Lately, I’ve been pissed at how simple I am and how I am okay with doing the normal and feeling fulfilled. Have I always been like this, or did lifestyle changes bring out a part of me I never knew existed? What happened to doing grand things? Did reality choke them out?

On average, I have about ten weird questions that cross my mind daily. I’m happier on days when I readily have an answer and a little in the dumps when I get confused. I try to see it as a good thing because those unanswered questions usually make it here and give us more clarity.

Back to my newly found simplicity: on one hand, it’s peaceful, and on the other, it feels like I am missing out on something. I’m hoping you can relate, and I am not alone in this, or the entirety of this article should be in my journal instead. I’ll choose the former for the purpose of this. 

It’s not like I don’t have answers to these questions; I don’t think they are enough. My answers are capitalism and show-off culture. Capitalism says you have to always be productive to sustain your life and, on the other hand, always show off your wins so everyone else can know you have been working.

This is why I feel inadequate, but something tells me they might be excuses, so how exactly are we meant to live? Do you get to a point and decide it’s the peak and just cruise through the rest of your life? Or is there even a peak? Do your dreams change as you get older?

There’s this narrative of you never being enough, and it’s the most influential market right now. Companies thrive on giving you better, even though they told you a few months ago that you had the best. Now, this isn’t necessarily evil; we wouldn’t be here without innovation, but the problem is the after-effects it leaves on you.

It makes you think there will always be better, so you are never satisfied with what you have or who you spend your time with. Once you get something new, you’re already looking forward to how much better the next one will be. So you always think you are not already enough. You constantly need to nitpick at your progress, not for growth but for the sake of showing it off and measuring it against what’s trending.

Change is good, but too much of it makes you lose balance. Whatever you’re feeling at the moment, or however you choose to live right now, know that it is already grand, and you have everything within you to make it enough. When you chase something better, do it from a place of contentment and not from inadequacy.

Everyone wants to sell you something; you don’t need to buy it all to prove yourself. You’re not missing out on anything, and there’s no set way to navigate life. If what brings you the most peace right now isn’t capitalist or social media worthy, it doesn’t mean you are not enough or not doing enough; it means you are more in touch with yourself than the noise outside.

I’m always grateful for you❤️ thank you for being here. Song of the moment- Love me more – Sam Smith. Enjoy your week 🥳